rant

i don't think i will ever understand why you love him. Maybe my opinion is biased because of my emotions. Yet, i can't shake the feeling your with the wrong man...and yet there is also her to consider as well. I look for your smile at every corner no matter where i am. My heart skips a beat when i do get the chance to look at the beautiful smile God blessed you with.

I'm torn, between two smile, two wondrous heats. And torn between wanting you all out of my head, out of my heart, and the hope that if i fight hard enough or with enough courage then maybe, just  maybe then you can be mine....

As much as i think in an emotional way rather then a more logical and scientific way like so many around me, i still don't always understand my own emotions...

God give me peace.

Stand Up!!

So todays been a pretty great day. Leland ordered the fire bibles tonight before bed. Went with the youth group to see despicable me 2, which was hilarious btw! then proceeded to mess around in half price books, then eat an amazing sub before going to epic loot. where i let shawn carry me in a game of halo risk, while i played brandon in vanguard. Got to try arbaros build of neo nectars which i'll be getting in a couple weeks. ordered this awesome vanguard mat from a guy in the facebook group only to find out that since its not sanctioned by bushiroad i can't use it at their sanctioned tournaments.

but i'm getting my license this thursday, terry goodkinds new book comes out next month, i got vanguard regionals in september. ren fest this fall, mass effect risk comes out in the fall. ps4 to be released this holiday season and then ohyao con with Hooweh in january!
Too many things with not enough money or time!!! xD

but yeah just excited so yeah...ttfn!

oh also started a forgotten realms adventure with Lee, chaseballs, john and his wife!