Monday, December 22, 2014

Murmur

I am very excited for christmas, even though Gab isn't feeling that well i pray she gets better by thursday cause i really want her to meet my family. But if she isn't then ill just hand out at her place most of the day then xD. I can't wait for her to see what i got her. And her parents too. i got them each something but they don't know that yet. Then the other day it dawned on me, im gonna get stuff too. I was literally so excited about giving presents it never crossed my mind to be excited about getting something. Thats the christmas spirit at work i guess. any way two more days of work then hopefully mom doesnt decide to be a poop and lets me stay the night at gabs, her dad works on christmas, real early so they offered me to stay over on eve so i could get up with them. If i can't stay ove rthen ill just get up at o dark thirty and drive over xD
ya know with 4 hours of sleep and possible icy roads...thanks Mom xD

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Dio dia la sua pace

I write this only so that i won't forget. Last night she cried, she felt afraid to open up for fear that i would be repulsed or scared off. She believes she is too messed up for me. I know this only cause her mother texted me after the other phone died. So i told them one of my struggles...my heart ache and how it became so broken. Only one other person knows about that.
She is broken, but so am I. Even a beautiful puzzle is made of many pieces, i hope we can make something beautiful from our brokeness.
I truely believe that it is the work of Satan putting these thoughts in our heads, yes our heads, i have fears too. I worry almost constantly. But that just further proves how much god approves of us if his nemesis is working so hard to pull us apart.
One day she will open up, she will spill her guts, break down in tears, anger, fear and God knows what else, but i want to be there by her side. I just pray God gives me the peace to deal with it, and also that he can give her peace when i break down.


Psalms 147:3
He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds
He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Brokenness#sthash.CPkRBOTN.dpuf
He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Brokenness#sthash.CPkRBOTN.dpuf
He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Brokenness#sthash.CPkRBOTN.dpuf
He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Brokenness#sthash.CPkRBOTN.dpuf
He heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. - See more at: http://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Brokenness#sthash.CPkRBOTN.dpuf

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Really wish I could stop thinking this way...the past realy does haunt you huh.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

honeyglow

The simple spark sprouted into a beautiful blue flamr with a hazel gold center. It swayed slowly back and forth, I couldn't help but grin. It was heartwarming knowing that something as simple as a candle flame could be so beautiful and bring him so much joy. And I couldn't help but feel like the flame was smiling back at me.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Sunday, June 22, 2014

For the Greater Good, again!

Heeres an updated tau army list cause i can, and to keep track, also i finished season two of buffy the vampire slayer, man i love netflix.



Tau Army List  2000 (yeah exactly! Suck on that GW!)
HQ: Farsight Enclave 724
Farsight 165
7 body guards without bonding knives 224
Addons    300
Misslpod x6 90
Plasma rifles x6 90
Dual Flamers 10
OGNAER gauntlet 5
Multi spectrum and command and control node 35
Stimulant injectorsx7 105

Troops: Devils Troops 654
3x12 Fire team w/ bonding knives  360
3 devilfish  258
Addon 18
Blacksun 3
Sensor 15

Elites:

Fast Attack:  308
Sunshark Bomber  168
Addon
Twin linked misslepods 5
Decoy launchers 3
2x5 markerlight drones  140

Heavy support:  314
2 hammerheads 314
Addon
Disruption pods  30
Two seekers each  32
Blacksun on both 2

Monday, June 2, 2014

PS4-Prelude

So over the past couple weeks i've been saving up for a Playstation 4. Putting 100 then 125 on gamestop gift cards, with 4x fuel points at kroger ill have plenty to help dim the higher prices (for now.) This Thursday ill put the final 200 on a gift card. My mom will be leaving for the weekend to my aunts so ill have some peace and quiet. So, that night ill gather up and store away my 360, to make room, as well as gather up all my 360 games except for my favorites and take them to gamestop or epic loot maybe (yeah they are started a video game store, me and nathan applied, wish usz luck,)
Then friday morning im going to run my 100+ coin jar to work and put it on a game stop gift card via coinstar (no tax or fee is taking out when you do this) so ill have enough to grab enough playstation store money to get transistor, a warframe and some weapons in warframe, then a little left over to put down some preorders.

SO yeah Leland and Nathan will hopefully join me (along with Cody who is looking for a new game to play on his PS4) will join me for a weekend of warframe.

At the same time im going Friday night to with my Dad to reflections, my brother restaruant (the only downside is that its an hour away =/ but with out mom complaining the whole way it should be fun, then we'll run out saturday to the air force museum (ive never been) so yeah. then after some food on the way back i might go clubbing with shawn and a few girls from work, so yeah this weekend is going to be busy as hell. But fun.

Ill post later about how the weekend went as well as my thoughts on the PS4 as i go.

Oh also, in the spirit of writing im going to do a superhero, written roleplay with some people with church, who are going to help me and Lazarus with another project, the roleplay has nothing to do with the other project but it will help us all get better at writing and have fun together.

Oh and because i can heres a small list of artists ive been listening too abunch lately
Icon for Hire
Twenty One Pilots
Fireflight
Bastille
Imagine Dragons

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Northern lights

     I awoke to the endless void once again, still surrounded the the familiar strangely colored flames and the doors they illuminate. The deep blue and gold flame hadn't changed since the last time yet next to it a new candle had formed still unlit. I griped my chest as my heart began to ache. It felt as if it was about to split in two. A spark ignited the new candle and a kaleidoscope flame blossomed onto the wick. The flame ever-changing, Inside a golden pen seemed to write the colors of the flame into existence.

     Captivated by its creative beauty i could feel its power spreading over me, infecting me. Suddenly i felt more alive, more ambitious, more passionate. It felt as if the flame wasn't confined by the wick it would spread forth into the sky and paint it with colors. A part of me feared that much raw power, but the other part relished in the idea of such beauty.

     I snapped out of my vision, my heart still ached but i would never forget that flame and the way it made me feel. I went over to my deck and hit the power button on my laptop and before long my fingers flew across the keyboard and with each stroke my mind raced a bit faster. i hadn't felt more alive and free then i did in that moment.

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

poopscapade!

So project get Katy a present was a success, she loved it. I got a nice long hug. And she finally gave me a nickname in her phone like she does with everyone else. Everyone is names after a Harry Potter character, i am Ron Weasly.
Oh boy...
So the leader appreciation dinner last firday was rescheduled because of snow so we are gonna try again this Friday. Hopefully all goes well, weather permitting.
Dnd is going good, john has decided to streamline and switch to 4th edition on his next game. So after we finish the the Story of our original characters we will start brand new adventures. One game were he is dming and another were i am dming. Also i started another game via skype but everytime we try and meet some one has work, it's so dumb!
Anyway i got all the dnd group a christmas present, i hope they all like their gifts. I wasn't expecting anything back but the Leland kid apparently got me something, so can't wait to see what shenanigans he got.
OH! I cannot wait for Destiny! I pre-ordered it today, securing my spot in the beta next year. It's gonna be a freaking blast!

I have now got John and Sarah into Magic: The gathering xD
And thus have gotten more back into it myself as of late. I was at Epic loot, our local gaming store and finihsed up a deck idea i had, then i had been thinking of another idea a simple Red white aggro deck using Cavalry Pegasus, which gives humans flying wehn he attacks, so the idea is simply. A bunch of weaker humans amass the field with Cavalry Pegasus and attack. I ended up asking one of the guys working, Jordan his htoughts and within a half hour or sooner made my deck for about 40 bucks, and with the small amount of testing ive done it works very well. Booyah!

Oh so on Black Friday i ended up getting a ps3 bundle for 200, with the last of us, and the new batman game, not wanting said batman game i went back like 20 minutes later and traded it in for 30 bucks and got Kingdom hearts 1.5 final mix for 20 bucks brand new, and infamous for 6 bucks. So all in all a good day. Earlier that day i went out with John and Sarah helping them do shopping. and we ended up getitng 3 40 inch tvs for the hang out room. Can't wait till its done!

I've finally watched all my recorded episodes of One Piece and thus have fallen back in love, just in time for toonami movie month which means no new episodes for at least 3 more weeks...asdfghjkl.

To the internet! Oh wait, i'm already here. Well see ya, ima see Luffy kick Franky's ass now xD

Friday, November 1, 2013

NaNoWriMo

So yeah NaNo started today but i had work from 7 to 3 so i didn't get to start till i got home. I only wrote 430 words today which sucks but hey i have a full week vacation ahead of me to get back on track! And i have an outline so it will help when i get to the good parts xD

Anyway off to bed so i can get up and write more tomorrow!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Crossroad of flames

The sound of metal sliding against metal echoed across the large circular room as the key slid into the lock. He twisted the key until the familiar clank rung in his ear, sliding the key back out he let the key fall from his hands but instead of hitting the floor it swung and a sharp but quick sound snapped into existence as it hit dozens of other keys tied around his neck.

Making his way back to the center of the room he knelt before the ring of candles which remained the only source of light in the large room. Each candle burned a different color, some brighter then others, some held larger flames, a few weren't even lit. Behind each one  stood a door upon the wall of varying shapes and makes. Dozens of candles, dozens of doors, dozens of keys. Some were closed, some locked. Others open all the way, while some were cracked open. Few didn't even have locks.

Pathways leading to different futures, separate sorrows. He knelt before the crossroads, another door had been locked. He slowly bent forward over the candle that represented the door which he had just locked. The flame it held was small but elegant. It was a black flame with a bright yellow core and tips. He took a deep breath and prayed a silent prayer, then slowly let his breath out and the unique flame went out.

And yet after this ordeal he did not weep of sorrow, but smiled in happiness. The truth had been shown to him. The door he had locked creaked and moaned as it moved, the room growing bigger, stretching itself out. Then wax dripped form the ceiling slowly staking it self into a new candle and as a new door warped into existence a flame arose and sparked into life upon the new candle. This time the flame was different then any other he had seen before. It was a dark blue flame with golden tips and core, but inside the golden core pranced a white spark.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Well Snap, crackle, pop!

I'll admit, i saw it coming. I wasn't sure how long it would take, but i saw it coming. Well i saw two things coming, but one i promised not to tell and the other i'll keep quiet about for the sake of courtesy.

Anyway,  the Scioto Hills retreat is this Friday! I cannot wait, i'm djing the dance party and i have a 4.6 hour list of music spread over 70 songs so this should be one great weekend!

On the other hand, due to recent developments my mind is splitting in two directions at full speed. Planning and conniving without my consent. I wanna just slow down and take it one day at a time but my mind just wants things to happen now. I know in the end it wouldn't be wise or tactful to do that though. I just wanna slow down, but i also think if i take it too slow i'll lose everything i hope for and long for again.

Whatever.

I convinced jenny to join nanowrimo with me. I am liking my idea but besides the world and some characters i'm not to sure where the plots gonna go. I guess we'll just have to find out. If nothing else i just hope to have fun writing again. its been way too long since i just wrote for fun.

Well Jen and Lee seem to be doing well, i'm happy for them, i just hope one day i can find someone, though also in the back of my mind i can accept the fact if i don't. it's all in God's hands, i just need to let him work in my life cause in the end he knows the best path for me to walk, the best people for me too meet and get to know.

I hope you're all having a good week, some i know are having trouble of your own but just remember God is with you and he won't give you something unless you can handle it. Maybe you can't on your own though, maybe he is giving you a trial just tough enough it makes you realize you need his help. i sure hope you take it. I promise you won't regret it.

Goodnight everyone.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Vanguard Championship Qualifier- Chicago 2013 Battle Report!

Well even though i was the first of my group of friends to get into the newest children's card game Vanguard i played more then a handful of local tournaments i was able to go into my first professional tournament for this game perfectly calm and still yet i tingled with excitement.

I ended up going 3-2 but considering this was my first tournament of this size (for vanguard anyway) and since all my other team, except for Christian and Tim, ended up scrubbing out round 2 or 3 i'm happy and 100% satisfied about how i did and how i played.

My decklist was nothing original, it was infact a clone of brandon's which despite his early knock out it still served me well. I ended up naming my deck 007 Cookie of Solace (since the card no. for a couple cards were bt01/007 and what not)


Starter- Little Witch, lulu
4x Battle Sister, Ginger (crit)
4x Psychic Bird (crit)
3x Oracle Guardian, Nike (crit)
1x Victory Maker (draw)
4x Lozenge magus (heal)

Grade 1's
1x Battle Sister, Cocoa
3x Battle Sister, Omelet
3x Battle Sister, Cream
4x Battle Sister, Chocolat (Perfect Guard)
4x Oracle Guardian, Gemini

Grade 2's
4x Battle Sister, Tarte
3x Battle Sister, Mocha
2x Battle Sister, Macaron
2x Silent Tom

Grade 3's
4x Scarlet Witch, Coco
3x Battle Sister, Cookie


Round 1 Win against Prisms
If there were any nerves or worries going through my body, they left as a grin on the inside took their place as I got my opening hand. I had everything i needed to ride and put on early pressure without giving up a hand and got early triggers to guard with. Even if i did get to 4 or 5 damage i had everything in hand as i had my full field, Cookie vanguard boosted by cream, mocha and lulu on the right tom and gemini on the left. my opponent took the lost well and we even played a quick fun game before the next round (which i won no prob just as i had before)

Round 2 Win against Platina Ezel
Before the tournament, since i hadn't had a lot of practice against different decks i thought that i should always go for rear guards for Paladins, but thankfully I asked my Teammates who all warned me that with Gold paladins i shouldn't bother. So I got my opponent to 3 damage then as soon as i had my units i rushed him and won by turn 5 or 6 since he couldn't keep up with my aggro to his vanguard rather then wasting attacks on his easily defender or replaced rear guards, as well as my constant hand advantage. Thus i realized my teammate Zach the night before told me Golds bad match up was OTT (my deck)

Round 3 Win against Majesty Lord Blaster
I have faced this deck before on a few occasions, all of which my opponent were able to pull of MLB's effect and hit me very hard and really push my limits. Thus i played this match safe while trying to hold on  to what i would need to rush the heck out of him. Then after a good assault on turn 4 i realized he had only gotten blaster blade but no blaster dark and only had 3 or 4 cards in hand, one of which was a perfect guard but i was able to get a double crit onto mocha (as well as a tarte/ gemini column) and won turn 5

Round 4 Loss against Megacolony (Stag)
My first match ever against Mega colony is a loss. Not a bad loss mind you, it was fun. My opponent was the nicest guy who willingly explained any cards i did not know (which were all of them.)
 During what i considered to be my biggest misplay of the tournament, my opponent does what megacolony does and it keeps my mocha and silent tom from standing next turn, so when he attacked i instantly sent tom and mocha and thena  10k guard from hand to the guard circle for a two pass which he hits  no triggers. By the end of his turn i still have my cookie, a 10k a booster and draw into perfect guard. Thus i could have used the 10k instead of tom and mocha, granted they would be useless that turn i still believe i could have used one or the other for just enough pressure to win. But the game ended with him at 5 damage so i am still happy to have put up a fight. theg uy was even reassuring my the guard with tom and mocha was the right choice considering what had happened. But i guess i'll never know.

Round 5 Loss against Prism
My opponent started the match with explaining he was a douche who would rule shark if needed, not knowing what to think i just said OK, and went on playing as smart as i could. When i realized he was using prisms i had high hopes considering my first victory was against roughly the same deck. Yet, luck was not on my side as he continues to use the effects and get of the break ride and develop the hand advantage. However souless OTT would not be what it is if i had not put up one hell of a fight. I had both Tom and mocha out for the last 2 turns, we were both running low on hand and both at 5 damage. I was able to heal on my last attack. So as i passed turn i knew i could win next turn, so long as  i survived. But he was able to pump out the magic numbers and a  crit to secure it, so with no heals i lost my final match, and my opponent took a huge sigh of relief then proceeded to tell his friend how worried he had been and how close it had gotten.
We shook hands and despite the loss, thus my exit from the tournament, I was just happy to have fought so hard and thus had fun which in the end is all that counts.

On a side note i learned how to play weiss schwarz and with the help of Will was able to put together a cool mono green madoka beat deck. I also got a hold of stuff for my Lawkeeper deck which is turning out to be major fun.
So thank you Brandon for letting me net deck off of you. Thank you to Will for helping me with Weiss. Thanks to Alex for putting up with 5 guys this weekend. Thanks to Zach for driving, as well as a thank you to Tim for joining me and in being fluffy POWERMANGAMERS! (Sword grow longer!)
See you all next year!

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Holy Cow!

So my mom got a free nights stay at the casino an hour or so south of here,a dn she went with my aunt. She called today saying she was gonna stay another night, so is she comes home tomorrow and doesn't stay a third night, she still won't be home till evening. And since i have the day off, i can like...enjoy my day xD

Anyway, i have thankfully gotten so and so out of my head. Yet one still remains. I haven't seen her in awhile either since she started school. =/  But thats ok cause if i can i'd rather focus on saving money and working with leland to find a good apartment for us to move into next summer which is sounding like more and more of a good idea everytime i bump into something in myc smallass room >.<

So i've been playing Fire Emblem: Awakening a bunch over the past week or so. It is really addicting. But the xp/ level grinding can get annoying. But it will make the endgame much easier xD

Also if you enjoy rock music i'd suggest the band Icon for Hire i have to listen to at least like 3 of their songs everyday before bed.

Oh also i'll be heading to chicago next weekend for Cardfight Vanguard regionals. Which should be fun, i'll be spending the weekend with a lot of strangers but Brandon will be there so i won't be all alone xD

Well it's going on 130am, i'm a bit hungry but if i go to bed soon i can maybe get up before 12 and like do stuff tomorrow....i'll let you know how that goes =P

Friday, July 26, 2013

rant

i don't think i will ever understand why you love him. Maybe my opinion is biased because of my emotions. Yet, i can't shake the feeling your with the wrong man...and yet there is also her to consider as well. I look for your smile at every corner no matter where i am. My heart skips a beat when i do get the chance to look at the beautiful smile God blessed you with.

I'm torn, between two smile, two wondrous heats. And torn between wanting you all out of my head, out of my heart, and the hope that if i fight hard enough or with enough courage then maybe, just  maybe then you can be mine....

As much as i think in an emotional way rather then a more logical and scientific way like so many around me, i still don't always understand my own emotions...

God give me peace.

Friday, July 5, 2013

Stand Up!!

So todays been a pretty great day. Leland ordered the fire bibles tonight before bed. Went with the youth group to see despicable me 2, which was hilarious btw! then proceeded to mess around in half price books, then eat an amazing sub before going to epic loot. where i let shawn carry me in a game of halo risk, while i played brandon in vanguard. Got to try arbaros build of neo nectars which i'll be getting in a couple weeks. ordered this awesome vanguard mat from a guy in the facebook group only to find out that since its not sanctioned by bushiroad i can't use it at their sanctioned tournaments.

but i'm getting my license this thursday, terry goodkinds new book comes out next month, i got vanguard regionals in september. ren fest this fall, mass effect risk comes out in the fall. ps4 to be released this holiday season and then ohyao con with Hooweh in january!
Too many things with not enough money or time!!! xD

but yeah just excited so yeah...ttfn!

oh also started a forgotten realms adventure with Lee, chaseballs, john and his wife!

Sunday, April 14, 2013

For the Greater Good!

I know its a break in the code geass episode titles but i wanted to post my tau army list, and its a nice point list so i can refer to it when calculating stuff xD  also i have had to recalculate and edit this page like 20 times now (no joke) so ...yeah for fucksakes i am tired xD

Hq: Commander Farsight
165 points
accompanied by 7 crisis bodyguards. 6 w/ plasma rifles, 6 given target lock allowing me to shoot different units then one will be given command and control node allowing this model to give up shooting to allow all failed hits of the entire unit to be rerolled, and multi-spectrum sensor suite which under the same conditions gives the unit the ignore cover special rule. This last one will be given a flamer, shield generator and neuro-web system generator. Then 5 shield drones.
 485 points

Troops: 2x12 man fire warriors, all with carbines all with boding knife.2 gun drones per fire warrior unit.
284 points

Transport: 2 devilfish with gun drones. Both also with the point defense targeting relay
180 points

Elite: 3 man XV8 crisis team all with twin linked flames and the shield generator  and knife bonding
174 points

Fast attack: three man piranha squad with fusion blaster
150 points

Sun shark bomber with twin linked missile pod and decoy launchers
168 points

Heavy Support: 2 Hammerhead's one with rail-gun and Longstrike and the second hammerhead has an ion cannon . One with point defense targeting relay
305 points

Broadside with velocity tracker
85 points

Total points:2000

Well there you have it, my Tau army. Granted it's never been playtested, but i plan to post it on ATT (the tau forums) for some veteran advice so wish me luck! And feel free to give me any advice or ask any questions =P



Monday, March 11, 2013

The False Classmate

Boy these code geass episode names just aren't relate-able  at all xD oh well. I only got scheduled for 4 hours this week.. .yeah only 4!  I really hope they call me in a couple times i need money if im gonna go to LIFE this summer. But my dad thinks i should get my income tax back when i file my W2 later this week so that should help. Anyway pray i can get more hours in at work.

I've been watching alot of movie lately, all with either Emma Stone or Emma Roberts in them. I gotta Emma Stone is a babe. I usually don't watch movies because of whose in them but I think i would watch anything if Emma Stone was in it xD

Well since i don't have anything else to write i'll leave you be, ya butts.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

The White Knight Awakens

So I've been talking with  a friend from church and trying to get her to open up. She's had some issues with her grandparents and such and thus never really opens up or trusts people. But I've convinced her to trust me if nothing else, and its helping her realize that God has a plan and she needs to trust others sometimes and not be afraid to speak the truth and open up. So thank you God for giving me the words to help her open up. I pray you can give me more words of wisdom so i can help others!

Anyway I have been playing Skyrim alot lately, i realized i might as well get my moenys worth and have fun , I even stayed up till 430 last night playing it and the only reason i went to bed was because i had work the next day otherwise i would kept going xD

Well i can't wait because Leland is gonna be turning 18 meaning he can sponsor people on base meaning we can go to the gym on base meaning i can hopefully get some exercise in and lose some weight!

Also Leland i wanna remind you we need to start planning our writing project for this summer i really wanna do this and help us both getting back into creative writing! =P

Well ima go...do...something. I don't know what, but I'm sure it'll be fun xD

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

The Day a New Demon was Born

Because im unoriginal ill title my blogs after code geass episodes. anyway i guess ill start ranting, it seems to help leland so why not give it a shot.

I want it know that in my heart all i want is the best for you, if he realizes this too and finally treats you like a man should then so be it, so long as your happy. But if he doesn't start showing you how much you mean to him then you need to rethink your position. I understand you love him but the love of one person doesn't make a relationship! its the combined, complimentary love and compassion of two people that make a relationship possible. I may just a friend that you see as a brother-figure buti hope you see one day that i care for you more then a friend or sister-figure!

so yeah thats all i got. i doubt anyone reads this anymore, but im ok with that i just needed to get this off my chest.  I'm going to go  play video games or something now